I am still waiting on Tony to call me he had to work this weekend. He want to chill and drink some remy. I dont drink Remy only got it because my friend want some. I guess I have some when he do come over my place and chill.. I have to many niggas in my life at this point but im happy to be cool with tim. I'm about clean my room, chat with tim and chill drink some remy before ill go bed. Also George, and maybe cornell call me tonight but cant wait to talk to Tim over the phone. we talked about the basketball game early today.

Mood:  d'oh
This what derek told me about my journal..

derek: this is how u express
derek: ur feelings well get out how u feel
derek: hope u Tim fell in love with each other if go that way..

Mood:  happy
I called my friend George from North Carolina see was he coming down there to visit in May but was not home I'll left an message. George is very good looking but he got an boyfriend but we just good friends. I am waiting to see if he call me back to night catch up on some things.

Mood:  a-ok
This happen this afternoon, this boy name darek hit me up on Yahoo. He sent me some pics of him some was nude pics... I did not know what to say about him sending me an pics of his whole body. derek said "wutz good jus saw u a fan of ced's story n shit n saw u was in my area so I jus wanted to say sup n wutz good wit u alwayz lookin 4 friends n maybe more so if u interested holla" I was thinking this before sent the pics, this might be an amazing guy to know. Maybe he want me to see what he was working with... He had an nice size dick and the azz was not that bad. I bet he fucked the shit out of someone if he really honey. I asked him where u located. Derek said ?I?m located in Fort Washington, Maryland.? I was like I am also in Prince George?s County. Then he told me "damn nice im sending u mine again though u got more u look sexy pa" I was like I think so.. I did not know what to say... I told him that I talking to someone kind of that I like allot and not looking for anything more at this point because I really similar to Tim and feeling him allot. Darek is okay guy don?t get it wrong but he told me ?do want to know if i shoujld back off im not tryin to invade if u talkin to a nicca?. You got tell people if u like someone allot but tim know about derek we talked about. I forgot he was like "who else u fuck wit u see ur niccas bout to lose in 50sec to the bulls" but like the wizards and bulls.. Lets end might get some more..

Mood:  energetic
Today I talked to Cornell who moved down to Maryland from Texas. He an manager at champssports in columbia mall but moving to new store in PG Plaza in July 2005. We talked on the phone he seem like an nice guy he going to hang out during splash and never been before just like me. He little older then me but very cool dude. I sent him my resume today for part-time job when the new store open. I also talked to tim today i told him I was working on webpage. he smile :).. Also I know in my heart i care for him.

4-24-05
Today, I will try to make some new friends that I'll can hang out with an be cool with and stuff. I will be chillin also today and talking to my friends.

4-24-05 2:34 pm
Mood:  bright
It's 2:31 pm just got up and trying to think what am I doing today dont want go to gym because it's 2:31 and might get there at 4pm because dont know when the bus coming and know the bus last leaves at 7pm. I'm going to chill on this Sunday and talk to my friends and watch tv. I'll asked my friend how was his night he said it was "it was really all good". That mean he had good time and people need to be happy.

Late Night
I have worked on my webpage about two-three hours it's 5:45 am and about go to bed i'll know tim is knocked out sleep so leave an message to tell him good night and hope had good time out.

4/23/05
Mood:  smelly
I told "T" today that care for him allot. He told me sorry for rushing me off the phone and was mad at him for min but forgive him. He be on my mind 24-7 I really like him then anyother person i aftermet or know. He has really charge my life I can't wait to May 27 to spend time with him and would not let it laid to ray story b/c I care to much about his feels and minds. He told me he "and I care for you too baby." I know it will take time to get to know him, he is like an big brother and more in my life at this point. He has really charged my life. I know that relationship status that I am trying get to know him he is like an best friend to me at this point, but really feel more for him.

4-20-05
Mood:  surprised
Me and Tim talked on the phone most of the day on Wednesday. I enjoy it and did not have allot work to do but talk to him..

4-19-05
Mood:  don't ask
I went to the club (Wet) and met Tony. He is an very cool friend who trying to have in my life to maybe become best friends. I did not get spend allot of time with him because my friend was rushing me leave the club.

4-18-05
Mood:  happy
I talked to Tim who from Chicago that charged my life. I'm not pursuing a relationship at this point with him because I giving him and me time to get to know each other better. This boi have charged me total think about him 24-7 and would not do nothing to hurt him. I know that he know that I like him allot. On May 27 I will meet Tim for first time. I have to admit I'm a little nervous, but I have to come out of my comfort zone let him get to know me more. I can't wait until he comes to Washington, DC to spend time together. Also I going to visit Chicago with him begin of June and be my first time in Chicago never been before. I know that he will show me an good time. I maybe want to go out to the movies, see the malls, relax together and just have fun and talk to know each other. I truly have someone I'll can talk to and have told allot of friends about him and my parents.