Looks who back in Picture
I'll was talking to my ex boyfriend Mario about stuff, etc. He told me that " i thought bout u" that was so sweet and still care about him allot. My baby still Single and have high standards, I know about that since I was with him cared about him with my heart. I would take him back to be my boyfriend if things works out.. I know that Marcus likes me also but care about him also but Mario was my love in my life. I loved Mario with my heart and soul.. but location was an problem with use.. I wanted to have an apartment together with Mario to live together spend our life together. Me and Marcus talked about this also..

I also had posted this, "your lifes sounds dagerous and fun FBI and watchin movies". This was someone I was talking to on adam4adam.com his screename is desiredbimany that is 18 Years Old and very cool person in P.G. County. He asked me "true..what do you do for a living..i mean what do you do" This job is very new to me and need an job to pay my bills, etc. I am glad working for the FBI they have their own gym and free also have ballas membership also.. We would just be friends since he have an boyfriend already.. but thats cool with me just being friends.

I talked about my new friend Komi from Bal-more on 6/26/05. I got tired of looking for bullshit nigga's in the area and was going try out of state friend's to see how it would be but it all pins on the person. I notice that all DC niggas are not fake as shit. He is also an vers/top and like that in him but dont care about if the person an top, bottom , or vers. This is how komi looks like real cute. This how he reply back from my message. He said, "ok cool. well tell me bout you. im Komi" I told him an little about me and then told me about him. That already in my journal that he reply back with about him. I had to posted this to my journal.

How can you make new friends with reply like this..

I was talking to this brother who stay in SE, DC around the corner and would get know him as an friend or more if that comes in time but this what happen, "explain to me y u would really like to get to know me?" I sent him an message telling trying make new friends and he in my area. But he told me early "well thanx...i try to be real cool" I like what he was all about on this profile on adam4adam.com (s/n- longing_4_luv)

This was on Point!!
Mood:  not sure

I read Brotha2Luv ad on m4n, and liked this on his profile. "You should let me love you. Let me be the one to, give you everything you want and need. Baby good love and protection, make me your selection, and show you the way love's supposed to be. Baby you should let me love you." I need someone like this.. This is what I am looking for do you think I'll find somone like this brother in my area?

I started working for the FBI last monday it was okay and I have one day off every 2nd monday of the week. I been chillin and chatting with new people making new friends. I am still Single at this point. My Bestfriend Randy came over my house tonight and spent the night and chilled watch movies. Now I am trying see if my other friend want to go to club tonight hang out trying get out the house or might watch tv and chill and I'm off work until wendesday. He was home left him message on this cell.

THIS IS MY BIG BROTHER NEW SITE FOR HIS ENTRIES, Tim's Blod I MISS HIM ALLOT BY TALKING ON THE PHONE AND HANG OUT IN PERSON SINCE HE BEEN BUSY ALLOT. BUT CAN'T WAIT SEE HIM THIS MONTH. I TOLD HIM I AM AN Personnel Security Assistant AT THE FBI. MY JOB IS GOING OKAY.. NEW PLACE WITH NEW CO-WORKERS.. ETC.

I am looking for real niggas that has their shit together to be friends or more someone with no drama and games. Damn..I notice yall niggas on the websites are fake as SHIT....U gotta walk the walk if you gon' talk the talk...fake fake fake fake....if u real..or some what close to it...You need get at me your boi..

GAY RELATIONSHIPS THAT LAST - FANTASY OR FACT
GAY MEN ARE NOT KNOWN TO HAVE LASTING RELATIONSHIPS. LET'S BE HONEST. WE ARE SO DRIVEN BY SEX AND ALWAYS THINK THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE. I CAN COUNT ON ONE HAND THE NUMBER OF GAY RELATIONSHIPS THAT HAVE OR WILL LAST FOR YEARS AND YEARS TO COME. WHY AREN'T WE ABLE TO HAVE A LASTING RELATIONSHIP. WHAT IS KEEPING US FROM THAT? WHAT DO WE LOOK FOR THAT WE CAN'T FIND IN OUR MATE? HELP ME WITH THIS ONE. WE ALL KNOW THAT IT IS NOT THE NORM FOR A GAY COUPLE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 5 YEARS OR MORE. MAYBE I'M WRONG OR MAYBE I'M RIGHT. DOES SOCIETY KEEP US FROM HAVING HEALTHY AND LASTING RELATIONSHIPS?

My Weekend
Mood:  mischievious
Last Night? I booked an hotel room at Washington Hilton to have fun on Saturday night and feel it was an good idea because would not have worry about getting home from hanging out.. Plus hotel was near everything fun. I went to fireplace want my best friend to hang out but he need to go church on Sunday since Randy miss church last week. I would have more fun if I had a friend there with me. My Friend Marcus sent me an text message on Saturday, "Hey wats up. I hope u aint messin wit nobody in that hotel room". This boi must like me allot. I need more time with someone and hang out allot? I want to see my baby two days an week or more if possible. I was drinking last night in hotel room and bar, went to sleep that all it wrote. Good News, I start my new job on Monday at FBI. I also have an new friend name Komi in Baltimore. This what I liked about him "I\'m 21 years Old (Scorpio). I am open-minded too on most things. I made myself a p[romise not to ever lie, because the truth will come out. I love to have fun too, mainly hanging out and trippin. Love playing video games, going to the mall, watching movies and hanging out." Maybe we might come more then friends u never know. I am Single and do what I want until I am involed with someone..

Update!!
Mood:  blue
I have not updated this Journal and will be done on this weekend..

On Saturday I went to the bank to get the some money for I can go shopping. I also brought my father an gift for Father Day's. Now It's Sunday listen to music and chillin about play xbox for while since did not play it in while.

Jason could not slept the night on Saturday because I dont have my own place so he had to leave early then what we planned but I told him when I get my apartment he come over in July chill with me. Marcus sent me an textmessage that night, "Hey Baby" about 1:28 am. I think that is very cute if me and Marcus get together that will be my boyfriend I like him allot but dont know how to tell him. I felt kind of bad about have sex with Jason since Marcus cares about me allot but he be very busy.

sometimes I get alone by my self.. But the THE_MVP_CLUB on Yahoo has made it better since allot people in same area you talk too and maybe meet up with. I talk to Keenan who works for the World Bank in Washington, DC he is 26 years old very cool we talked on the phone for while and live in the area never me. This how it started, "assup yo. I'm just sending you a shout from Oxon Hill (over by eastover).
Just wanted to let you know that i'm in the area if you ever don't have
anything to do and just wanna chill out...
Holla back atcha boy." I never thought you will meet someone in the same area off of an yahoo group since 100 millian chance you meet and talk to guy in same area. But it can happen.. I'm going call him on Friday when I have some time or maybe this weekend also Mike called me couple days ago. This boi never have this phone on. we talked back in Feb 05 been while his friends tell him u never have phone on and hard get in contact and it's true. I told him I stop calling him for that reason. I'm try call my good friend George in North Carolina see how he is doing see him an little.

Getting this out...
I want to have better communications with Tim since we dont talk allot on the phone. Me and Tim are cool maybe because in our life we are busy and things change an little bit. Somtimes I miss talking to him like we used too.. Now days I dont know if I want someone in my life not talking about him mean anyone. I like being single and just making friends etc but I tried to ask some an question but I'm not going back to the past if it was meant to be done move on to the future. I used to like my bestfriend allot had feels for him we was still cool when he went str8 for while now he back to his old ways but dont know if I want to be with him or stay best friends. I dont know if I want to be single maybe I am waiting until that nigga make the move. Allot of people are not ready to start dating it's an point when you have to stop and think about it. I want to be with someone I can trust and know he will not creat on me and will not do the same if I did would tell him what happen that I love him it was mistake I am sorry and he should forgive me lately I have been getting allot of IM's on Yahoo and emails etc. allaround the USA and some in my area. I sure wrote allot to night need to get that out in the open for now!!

Tonight me and Jason talked on the phone allnight he planning to come over my house on friday until maybe sunday or monday but we going to the movies on saturday and on Sunday I'm going to church with him. I also give some advisor to Tim my big brother in Chicago on his website. I also was cleaning up my room since I'm having company this weekend. I'm going to lunch on friday with Ms. Canty one of my former co-worker at another building at my agency on my off day since im not near there next week. I'll start my new job at FBI on Monday June 27 but going to see Land of the Dead on Friday June 24 thats my plan maybe by my self or with someone I dont know yet. This boi name Darek in Washington, DC hit me up I really dont feel like talking him for some reasons I'm not going call him, answer the phone etc. I just need time to my self for little while this not my boyfriend etc. just.. something.. I think my life is okay it could be better one good things is have new job.. waiting get my own place and lover. First I want to move to Chicago but now. I really dont know but I'm cutting off assocaties and only talking to my real friends. I have one good friend in chicago who feel confort of talking too about things thats why I call him an big brother etc.

Friday
On Friday, I got an call from Jason telling me good morning around 8 am. I left my house around 10 am to have lunch with Ms. Canty but I think she forgot since she was not at work. So I left an message on desk telling her we need to re-scheduled. I seen other former co-workers while was up there and then went to Jason's job and chilled with him until he got off at 4:30 pm and went back to my house. He slept the night.. He paid for dinner that night we had pizza and bufflo wings. Then we had some blow azz sex that night and give some good azz head. I was doing something that someone touch me.. I dont know why.. Thats It for now.. I am not Jason man dont have one yet it was just sex..

Wednesday, June 15, 2005 I was so busy with audits at work did not leave the job unitl 8 pm and arrive to work at 8 am. I earned 3 hours of comp time. I have taking off today and off on my CDO Day on friday so dont have go back to work until monday. I have join two new groups on Yahoo that is tight and nice as an family. One of them is district_brothas that okay group. The other is THE_MVP_CLUB this group has it going on.. more group that sent me membership and join this is new group called SMYAL_Youth. So I am waiting to see what I'm going do today. I also met an new friend name Jason who 25 coming to chill with me Friday.

The entry I made on June 11, 2005 I take that back because of I ask the guy I was talking to online, "what you been up too that can't call me or hit me back this vince the cool one you was talking too one weekend at lease reply to see whats going on. Im about go bed and will check this in the morning. One ", and told me "naw my internet was fucked up chill hommie!!" So I told him I am sorry and please give me an call when he have some time.

This is from my Best Friend Randy Page, I like this thought I would share this on my page and also me my Coustin Randy not Best Friend they have the same name and my dad went to look at this studio apartment that was very nice that I'm applying for to have my own place.

You are Love

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of man kind.