My Weekend
Mood:  mischievious
Last Night? I booked an hotel room at Washington Hilton to have fun on Saturday night and feel it was an good idea because would not have worry about getting home from hanging out.. Plus hotel was near everything fun. I went to fireplace want my best friend to hang out but he need to go church on Sunday since Randy miss church last week. I would have more fun if I had a friend there with me. My Friend Marcus sent me an text message on Saturday, "Hey wats up. I hope u aint messin wit nobody in that hotel room". This boi must like me allot. I need more time with someone and hang out allot? I want to see my baby two days an week or more if possible. I was drinking last night in hotel room and bar, went to sleep that all it wrote. Good News, I start my new job on Monday at FBI. I also have an new friend name Komi in Baltimore. This what I liked about him "I\'m 21 years Old (Scorpio). I am open-minded too on most things. I made myself a p[romise not to ever lie, because the truth will come out. I love to have fun too, mainly hanging out and trippin. Love playing video games, going to the mall, watching movies and hanging out." Maybe we might come more then friends u never know. I am Single and do what I want until I am involed with someone..

Update!!
Mood:  blue
I have not updated this Journal and will be done on this weekend..

On Saturday I went to the bank to get the some money for I can go shopping. I also brought my father an gift for Father Day's. Now It's Sunday listen to music and chillin about play xbox for while since did not play it in while.

Jason could not slept the night on Saturday because I dont have my own place so he had to leave early then what we planned but I told him when I get my apartment he come over in July chill with me. Marcus sent me an textmessage that night, "Hey Baby" about 1:28 am. I think that is very cute if me and Marcus get together that will be my boyfriend I like him allot but dont know how to tell him. I felt kind of bad about have sex with Jason since Marcus cares about me allot but he be very busy.

sometimes I get alone by my self.. But the THE_MVP_CLUB on Yahoo has made it better since allot people in same area you talk too and maybe meet up with. I talk to Keenan who works for the World Bank in Washington, DC he is 26 years old very cool we talked on the phone for while and live in the area never me. This how it started, "assup yo. I'm just sending you a shout from Oxon Hill (over by eastover).
Just wanted to let you know that i'm in the area if you ever don't have
anything to do and just wanna chill out...
Holla back atcha boy." I never thought you will meet someone in the same area off of an yahoo group since 100 millian chance you meet and talk to guy in same area. But it can happen.. I'm going call him on Friday when I have some time or maybe this weekend also Mike called me couple days ago. This boi never have this phone on. we talked back in Feb 05 been while his friends tell him u never have phone on and hard get in contact and it's true. I told him I stop calling him for that reason. I'm try call my good friend George in North Carolina see how he is doing see him an little.

Getting this out...
I want to have better communications with Tim since we dont talk allot on the phone. Me and Tim are cool maybe because in our life we are busy and things change an little bit. Somtimes I miss talking to him like we used too.. Now days I dont know if I want someone in my life not talking about him mean anyone. I like being single and just making friends etc but I tried to ask some an question but I'm not going back to the past if it was meant to be done move on to the future. I used to like my bestfriend allot had feels for him we was still cool when he went str8 for while now he back to his old ways but dont know if I want to be with him or stay best friends. I dont know if I want to be single maybe I am waiting until that nigga make the move. Allot of people are not ready to start dating it's an point when you have to stop and think about it. I want to be with someone I can trust and know he will not creat on me and will not do the same if I did would tell him what happen that I love him it was mistake I am sorry and he should forgive me lately I have been getting allot of IM's on Yahoo and emails etc. allaround the USA and some in my area. I sure wrote allot to night need to get that out in the open for now!!

Tonight me and Jason talked on the phone allnight he planning to come over my house on friday until maybe sunday or monday but we going to the movies on saturday and on Sunday I'm going to church with him. I also give some advisor to Tim my big brother in Chicago on his website. I also was cleaning up my room since I'm having company this weekend. I'm going to lunch on friday with Ms. Canty one of my former co-worker at another building at my agency on my off day since im not near there next week. I'll start my new job at FBI on Monday June 27 but going to see Land of the Dead on Friday June 24 thats my plan maybe by my self or with someone I dont know yet. This boi name Darek in Washington, DC hit me up I really dont feel like talking him for some reasons I'm not going call him, answer the phone etc. I just need time to my self for little while this not my boyfriend etc. just.. something.. I think my life is okay it could be better one good things is have new job.. waiting get my own place and lover. First I want to move to Chicago but now. I really dont know but I'm cutting off assocaties and only talking to my real friends. I have one good friend in chicago who feel confort of talking too about things thats why I call him an big brother etc.

Friday
On Friday, I got an call from Jason telling me good morning around 8 am. I left my house around 10 am to have lunch with Ms. Canty but I think she forgot since she was not at work. So I left an message on desk telling her we need to re-scheduled. I seen other former co-workers while was up there and then went to Jason's job and chilled with him until he got off at 4:30 pm and went back to my house. He slept the night.. He paid for dinner that night we had pizza and bufflo wings. Then we had some blow azz sex that night and give some good azz head. I was doing something that someone touch me.. I dont know why.. Thats It for now.. I am not Jason man dont have one yet it was just sex..

Wednesday, June 15, 2005 I was so busy with audits at work did not leave the job unitl 8 pm and arrive to work at 8 am. I earned 3 hours of comp time. I have taking off today and off on my CDO Day on friday so dont have go back to work until monday. I have join two new groups on Yahoo that is tight and nice as an family. One of them is district_brothas that okay group. The other is THE_MVP_CLUB this group has it going on.. more group that sent me membership and join this is new group called SMYAL_Youth. So I am waiting to see what I'm going do today. I also met an new friend name Jason who 25 coming to chill with me Friday.

The entry I made on June 11, 2005 I take that back because of I ask the guy I was talking to online, "what you been up too that can't call me or hit me back this vince the cool one you was talking too one weekend at lease reply to see whats going on. Im about go bed and will check this in the morning. One ", and told me "naw my internet was fucked up chill hommie!!" So I told him I am sorry and please give me an call when he have some time.

This is from my Best Friend Randy Page, I like this thought I would share this on my page and also me my Coustin Randy not Best Friend they have the same name and my dad went to look at this studio apartment that was very nice that I'm applying for to have my own place.

You are Love

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of man kind.

I was telling Randy today that I want him more in my life. This boi has been there for me during the ups and down been there for him too. I sent him an e-mail few mins ago. Jawara and Randy look just like brothers. Randy is special in my life keep mind we just best friends for now, I used to care for him more and have feels. Allot of stuff was going on in the past. Update.. I found out that Chris has an boyfriend and cool with me because we just friends.

Update
The nigga in Captiol Heights is fake was talking about meeting and chilling but now not sending messages or calling me for no reason. But Jawara is so cool and maybe he will spend time together on sunday. He remind me of my best friend Randy hopefully Jawara might be future boyfriend if no else dont step up to the bate. I am not hoping for boyfriend if I get one I do and care about him with my heart also looking for friends. I will put this up here me and Jordan might just be friends if we do then we do might be someone else that suppost to be with in my life.

I told Jordan that I was lonley today and wanted him come over and chill with me tonight watch movies. Like he told me last time he want someone to hold him with no sex I wanted the samething today. This what Jordan told me, "you are so great
right now more than anythign else I need us to be friends". This is why he said that this what I'm thinking. " I ended up talking to my exboyfriend today and it made me realize that I am not ready to go there with anyone right now". He still have feels for his ex I understand I want know him more not be his lover at this point someone I chill with as an friend and get to know if it turns to more we talk about it and work it out I still have feels for my ex-Boyfriend name Mario an little bit. I told him this, "But Jordan, I know he had an good first date. That would be good since we just be friends for now because I really like u in good way. I have other niggas I am trying to know get to know before I rush in something but I really care for you as friend want spend time together" I dont know but I like him but I am giving other people chances to know me because you dont know who you might be with... One

Davon came over my house around 1 am chilled with me but got there late because of the traffic on the bmore/washington parkway and his roomate from college was with him from Bal-more. It was me, Davon and his roomate watch tv and talked in my room. His College roomate was sleep in my bed while we was talking. After an hour I walked them out the house, me and Devon was playing puching and after we kissed and give hug and told him get home safe. I think that Davon is cute and Jordan is also very cute so I do not have no one I am dating at this time but I'm trying get to know each person I know first to they ask me be there special one in there life.

I have accept an positions with the FBI as an Personnel Security Assistant. I will be leaving CSOSA to move to an better career. Also I did not get the apartment in Baltimore, Maryland.

Updated.. @ 2 AM
I'm Single, I have went on one date with Jordan and that mean I am not seeing no one right now just dating until that one hit the spot and tell me after the second or third date that they are looking for more. I just want to put that update out there for no one dont be in there feels. Now back to the show. I am also looking for friends!!

On Wednesday I applied for One Bedroom apartment at Roland Ridge that I seen on 5/20/05 that I really like, I have friends in Bmore and co-workers. I also appiled for part-time job at jcpenny's in Bmore. The price is $ 645 an month. I did not said that the apartment is in Baltimore, Maryland. My co-workers told me that is an good commmunity should say white people mixed with an few black people so if I get the apartment I'm going have an apartment warming in July invite my good friends I know. If you not in Baltimore and want to come to house warming you spend the night if dont drive I know that be... I told my dad about he was flessing but I dont care if I want to move I can.. Maybe because they will lost there rent money I pay them everymonth I want my own shit.

I had my first date with Jordan on Tuesday at Pentagon City. We went to the Marshalls to find something for me to wear to my Interview for D.O.T as Enforcement Assistant. We pick out the cuties shirt for the Interview and also Cuurve Crush cologne set. So we talked while we was at Pentagon City Mall and went to The American Cafe spent $37.83 and Jordan give up five dollars for the tip the service was okay could have been better but our date was an rush since everything been going with Jordan today, he losted his keys to his dorm that costs $250. Also other issues that is between me and him since I do not want his business in the streets because thats my boi we had an goodtime. I made the bus on time got home around 9pm the date start at 6pm so it was an funny time also called Chris to see what he was doing but was bad time did not feel like talking dont know why but I will find out if he is okay. Also Tim called me and told me he will call me back but he did and I'll fell sleep so I left him message on Yahoo IM that we will talk on Wend. 6/8/05. I forgot my co-worker took me to my check up at the doctor and told me she will be waiting when got out side no Ms. Jones and car no wear to found on cell phone or by co-worker and parnter at the job. She did Ghost. The End for Now..

I talked to my co-workers, told them that I like this boi name Jordan allot since he is cool and want to be with him but not really sure until I meet him but I care about him allot as an friend and more in heart. I also have other guys that like me also but been force on him the most since I want him. I told them if me and Jordan gets together we will take it slow and let the relationship grow. I might back off him an little because have all this love to show if he dont like it someone else can have it..