On May 8 I went to beach for first time I'll know dont want go know more it was allot of sand. It was raining in Houston, TX but not near the beach but the weather got bad when it reach to the beach went went home early and made it. we chilled at house allnight and I'll went home on May 9th. Moses took me home on monday and talked to tim before i left housto tx and called him when ill get back to dc. Ill got to DC safe the plane was acting funny that why ill was scared coming back and power went out before we left houston tx.

On May 7th, I went to the hotel party and freak two dudes on the dance floor both was cute as shit. I'll just dance with them did not want sleep with them or fuck them. The second one was skinny and cute did not ask where they was from but I know if take my time to know someone that special one will come to me. I had allot of dudes as me to be my boyfriend but I want to know the person first but if i like him he like me and ask me be his boyfriend ill really have to think about it. After the party we walked around and then went home. I'll dance all night and had an ball.

On Friday May 6, 2005 I slep most of the day and talked to tim and hang out with Anthony thats xavier best friend he's cool we had fun going to club he got fucked up fast and I give him the money to buy are first drink and he give me his money because we got the first drink out of minds because he getting same kinda of drink for me and him and give me chance for twenthy dollars and also got an free drink from bar person and then ill just chillined and drink and then we went home and felt alsleep thinking about when am i'll going to find the right guy for me to love care about me and my feels and do same for him. That was my CDO Day off from work that what made best of it also.

On Thursday I went downtown to library it was boring because could not check all my stuff some things was blocked. I went to mcdonalds and had some chicken nuggets and fries. Maybe tim had same thing for lunch thats his favorite food during lunch everytime I talk to him. Then went to the club did not have fun by my self. it was boring but slows and drinks was good it be fun if i was with someone xavier did not go in because he was being bad dont ask me why.

I just arrived at Houston, TX it was just right it was warm kj came and got me from the airport that plane arrived late to Washington, DC thats how the plane was late kinda of but we could not land until 5pm met Xavier and his sister, roomate and friends and went out get something to eat and ride around downtown. I was asked by his roomate did want hang out with him and his friends said yes ill chillined while they play cards and talked to tim on the phone. Then we left and went back to apartment took my azz to sleep.

I'm chillin at home now watching Mr. 3000.. I go to Houston, TX on wendesday and going to spend the afternoon with KJ by going to the mall or movies etc and then with my home boy Xavier until May 9th. I also talked to Tim today who seem like he can't wait to see me and also can't wait also.

I chilled with two of my friends one name is John and other one Rasario on Sunday in DC. We chilled and watched movies allnight and had an good time. Also some of there friends was hanging out over his apartment. I also talked to tim he told me call him at work because he was tired.

Me and Tony was suppost to chill friday or saturday but he be busy so we might chill when I come back from Houston TX on week of May 9-May 15. I talked to KJ we hooking up to chill when I come to Houston on May 4. Nothing else been going on just chillin and chatting with friends.

Tonight on 4/27/2005 I received an email from Ray on subject Tim. He stated that “All I can say is take a lot of time to get to know him”. On that remark I am trying to know Tim and seem like a very cool guy to me so I am not going by the email. He also told me “Tim's problem is that he only posts HIS side of the story.” So Ray much had an side of the story!! On that note I still feel same about Tim nothing is stopping me of getting to know him for him.

Mood:  vegas lucky
I'll just called Tim few mins ago but just got out the shower but he going call me back. Also Tony called me we talk about 15-20 mins how he was running around allday and that we might chill together on thursday or friday (Who knows!@!)

Mood:  crushed out
Today I went to work and had to leave work and drop some paperwork downtown when i was going down to 633 Indiana Ave, NW Tony called me thought ill was free in the morning but i was not had to drop the paper off and get back to work because we had an team meeting. I had an easy time getting back to work becuause bus was waiting for me and did not have to wait transfer to bus that comes in front of my job. we had the meeting and support staff went to luncheon and drop me back at home and start drinking some remey and knocked the fuck out too 11 pm at night. so im up writing this also tim hit me up while ill was sleep like shit. I left him message on his im he in the shower. He is so cool with me my baby boi..

Tony and me was suppost hang out on tuesday night but had to run out the house and got home late think i would came and found someone get him it's hard to do that with no car but he cool, and reason that he need money for work. U dont loan ur friends money if know that not pay it back right away and when u need to get to work but we was going to hang out today or friday but friday an good day. I have not hearld from my friend George in North Carolina couple days has passed.

I was mad at tim on tuesday because of something but we worked it out. For instance I'm going to meet this guy named Tim when he comes to DC next month. Tim seems like an very sweet guy, but I like him allot. Only time will tell though.

I also talked to tim for an min tonight. I was drinking little bit of Remey Martin but know I will talk to him at work on monday. I still can't wait to May 27th.

Tony called me tonight around 10:50 pm want to hang out tonight and drink some remy but need an way over my house, so want me to see could i have an frind pick him up.. so called my friends Bo he said call me back at 11:00pm but never did and called john he told me he should let me know before it was to late since he got go work in the morning. so me and tony talked and said we maybe can chill after ill get off work on monday.

I am still waiting on Tony to call me he had to work this weekend. He want to chill and drink some remy. I dont drink Remy only got it because my friend want some. I guess I have some when he do come over my place and chill.. I have to many niggas in my life at this point but im happy to be cool with tim. I'm about clean my room, chat with tim and chill drink some remy before ill go bed. Also George, and maybe cornell call me tonight but cant wait to talk to Tim over the phone. we talked about the basketball game early today.

Mood:  d'oh
This what derek told me about my journal..

derek: this is how u express
derek: ur feelings well get out how u feel
derek: hope u Tim fell in love with each other if go that way..

Mood:  happy
I called my friend George from North Carolina see was he coming down there to visit in May but was not home I'll left an message. George is very good looking but he got an boyfriend but we just good friends. I am waiting to see if he call me back to night catch up on some things.

Mood:  a-ok
This happen this afternoon, this boy name darek hit me up on Yahoo. He sent me some pics of him some was nude pics... I did not know what to say about him sending me an pics of his whole body. derek said "wutz good jus saw u a fan of ced's story n shit n saw u was in my area so I jus wanted to say sup n wutz good wit u alwayz lookin 4 friends n maybe more so if u interested holla" I was thinking this before sent the pics, this might be an amazing guy to know. Maybe he want me to see what he was working with... He had an nice size dick and the azz was not that bad. I bet he fucked the shit out of someone if he really honey. I asked him where u located. Derek said ?I?m located in Fort Washington, Maryland.? I was like I am also in Prince George?s County. Then he told me "damn nice im sending u mine again though u got more u look sexy pa" I was like I think so.. I did not know what to say... I told him that I talking to someone kind of that I like allot and not looking for anything more at this point because I really similar to Tim and feeling him allot. Darek is okay guy don?t get it wrong but he told me ?do want to know if i shoujld back off im not tryin to invade if u talkin to a nicca?. You got tell people if u like someone allot but tim know about derek we talked about. I forgot he was like "who else u fuck wit u see ur niccas bout to lose in 50sec to the bulls" but like the wizards and bulls.. Lets end might get some more..

Mood:  energetic
Today I talked to Cornell who moved down to Maryland from Texas. He an manager at champssports in columbia mall but moving to new store in PG Plaza in July 2005. We talked on the phone he seem like an nice guy he going to hang out during splash and never been before just like me. He little older then me but very cool dude. I sent him my resume today for part-time job when the new store open. I also talked to tim today i told him I was working on webpage. he smile :).. Also I know in my heart i care for him.