This is from my Best Friend Randy Page, I like this thought I would share this on my page and also me my Coustin Randy not Best Friend they have the same name and my dad went to look at this studio apartment that was very nice that I'm applying for to have my own place.

You are Love

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of man kind.

I was telling Randy today that I want him more in my life. This boi has been there for me during the ups and down been there for him too. I sent him an e-mail few mins ago. Jawara and Randy look just like brothers. Randy is special in my life keep mind we just best friends for now, I used to care for him more and have feels. Allot of stuff was going on in the past. Update.. I found out that Chris has an boyfriend and cool with me because we just friends.

Update
The nigga in Captiol Heights is fake was talking about meeting and chilling but now not sending messages or calling me for no reason. But Jawara is so cool and maybe he will spend time together on sunday. He remind me of my best friend Randy hopefully Jawara might be future boyfriend if no else dont step up to the bate. I am not hoping for boyfriend if I get one I do and care about him with my heart also looking for friends. I will put this up here me and Jordan might just be friends if we do then we do might be someone else that suppost to be with in my life.

I told Jordan that I was lonley today and wanted him come over and chill with me tonight watch movies. Like he told me last time he want someone to hold him with no sex I wanted the samething today. This what Jordan told me, "you are so great
right now more than anythign else I need us to be friends". This is why he said that this what I'm thinking. " I ended up talking to my exboyfriend today and it made me realize that I am not ready to go there with anyone right now". He still have feels for his ex I understand I want know him more not be his lover at this point someone I chill with as an friend and get to know if it turns to more we talk about it and work it out I still have feels for my ex-Boyfriend name Mario an little bit. I told him this, "But Jordan, I know he had an good first date. That would be good since we just be friends for now because I really like u in good way. I have other niggas I am trying to know get to know before I rush in something but I really care for you as friend want spend time together" I dont know but I like him but I am giving other people chances to know me because you dont know who you might be with... One

Davon came over my house around 1 am chilled with me but got there late because of the traffic on the bmore/washington parkway and his roomate from college was with him from Bal-more. It was me, Davon and his roomate watch tv and talked in my room. His College roomate was sleep in my bed while we was talking. After an hour I walked them out the house, me and Devon was playing puching and after we kissed and give hug and told him get home safe. I think that Davon is cute and Jordan is also very cute so I do not have no one I am dating at this time but I'm trying get to know each person I know first to they ask me be there special one in there life.

I have accept an positions with the FBI as an Personnel Security Assistant. I will be leaving CSOSA to move to an better career. Also I did not get the apartment in Baltimore, Maryland.

Updated.. @ 2 AM
I'm Single, I have went on one date with Jordan and that mean I am not seeing no one right now just dating until that one hit the spot and tell me after the second or third date that they are looking for more. I just want to put that update out there for no one dont be in there feels. Now back to the show. I am also looking for friends!!

On Wednesday I applied for One Bedroom apartment at Roland Ridge that I seen on 5/20/05 that I really like, I have friends in Bmore and co-workers. I also appiled for part-time job at jcpenny's in Bmore. The price is $ 645 an month. I did not said that the apartment is in Baltimore, Maryland. My co-workers told me that is an good commmunity should say white people mixed with an few black people so if I get the apartment I'm going have an apartment warming in July invite my good friends I know. If you not in Baltimore and want to come to house warming you spend the night if dont drive I know that be... I told my dad about he was flessing but I dont care if I want to move I can.. Maybe because they will lost there rent money I pay them everymonth I want my own shit.

I had my first date with Jordan on Tuesday at Pentagon City. We went to the Marshalls to find something for me to wear to my Interview for D.O.T as Enforcement Assistant. We pick out the cuties shirt for the Interview and also Cuurve Crush cologne set. So we talked while we was at Pentagon City Mall and went to The American Cafe spent $37.83 and Jordan give up five dollars for the tip the service was okay could have been better but our date was an rush since everything been going with Jordan today, he losted his keys to his dorm that costs $250. Also other issues that is between me and him since I do not want his business in the streets because thats my boi we had an goodtime. I made the bus on time got home around 9pm the date start at 6pm so it was an funny time also called Chris to see what he was doing but was bad time did not feel like talking dont know why but I will find out if he is okay. Also Tim called me and told me he will call me back but he did and I'll fell sleep so I left him message on Yahoo IM that we will talk on Wend. 6/8/05. I forgot my co-worker took me to my check up at the doctor and told me she will be waiting when got out side no Ms. Jones and car no wear to found on cell phone or by co-worker and parnter at the job. She did Ghost. The End for Now..

I talked to my co-workers, told them that I like this boi name Jordan allot since he is cool and want to be with him but not really sure until I meet him but I care about him allot as an friend and more in heart. I also have other guys that like me also but been force on him the most since I want him. I told them if me and Jordan gets together we will take it slow and let the relationship grow. I might back off him an little because have all this love to show if he dont like it someone else can have it..

Today Chris and Me talked online and little while on the phone he told me he call me back. He also asked did I want go to the movies but then thought about that the weather is bad since was raining and lighting outside. Thats my baby..

James real age!!
Today I talked James Friend name D, I asked him "the same one cuz this is my house and he stays wit his mother". His Mother dont like him being gay. Also D asked me, "how old did he tell u that he was yo" He told me he was 18 Years Old but D told me "that nigga is only 17 yo". I am like damn.. But D is 20 and will be 21 next week. So I know it over with me James since he is under age.. I can't be no jail boi sorry thats not me my age limit is 18 and older. one

I talked to Jordan about planning an trip out of town maybe to Chicago and get an hotel room and hang out with Tim, and Re'ale do something fun but Jordan dont want me to spend all that money. I told him I will pay for it and will plan an trip like after the summer etc. I go somewhere fun and show him an goodtime.. But told me I still want my first date so told him Tuesday!! Now Thats it for now.

Also talked to Jawara also he was working late on Sunday. He told me he call me but did'nt but last night had allot of calls. I had to tell everybody on phone with Jordan call me back in 10-15 mins. They keep calling. I sent Tim an email this morning to see how was his weekend. he told me, "My weekend was fine, can't complain. How was yours?". I happy that he had an great weekend mines was okay went to see my grandmother in the hopstiol. She was asking why am i spending all that money. I was like I am not.. I told my dad I been applying for jobs in Chicago he did not care. He was like if you want to it up too you I told him it's more money and charge. Now I'm going get back to work..

On Sunday, Jordan told me on the phone that also like me too and been thinking about me. We are planning to go on are first date on Tuesday. That should be fun. Also I sent Jordan an IM online to tell him good night but his roomate told me that, "homie fell asleep". They ask me did they want them wake him. I told him let him sleep left him an message on his cell phone. Now today.. I get back to work have work for days doing audits for supervisor that is blowing me to much shit.. I keep you updated.. One

I like Jordan allot..

Today, I finally did it I told Jordan how much I care about him. I really like Jordan and want to become his boyfriend. I told him "I want to get to know you better. I like u little bit, also when i was in chicago Tim told me that I like u allot." Tim told me in Chicago that really like the boy. Jordan told me, "your so sweet". I told Jordan, I want someone who be under me and spend time together. Jordan ask me, "you like the club though" but I told him "If I am chillin with my baby dont have go club i watch him.. be with him". He told me your real nice but but you live with the folks, how could I just come and chill with you? If you become my bay you chill me anytime because you be so special to me.. what would you tell your parents? I did not answer that question since he had to run it all pins on how long we been dating. Jordan attends Howard U from ATL.

Today, I was talking this nigga online who live in Captiol Heights, He is cool as shit new to the area. I like when he said, "YEAH I CAN BE FAITHFULL TO THE RIGHT NIGGA AND YOU" I need someone who can be faithful to me or there going to be allot of shit going down because I dont like to be played or feels hurt. This was the best thing he said, "YOU, SOUND LIKE A REAL AS NIGGA WITH SOME REAL SHIT ON HIS MIND" This boi is 22 Years Old going to turn 23 Years old. U not ready for face pic.. he's cool..

At this point of time, I'm looking for someone who wants be freaky with his man. Also little bit fem thats cute to me someone who call you and tell you how care for you and spend time together.

Tonight, Jawara called me tonight we was talking about relationship and other stuff he cool he reminds me of my bestfriend Randy who used to mess uo but he's bottom but i dont care because know how me randy was and was in love with the boi. I can say I'm freak but want to be one with that special one guy. I also liked what my other friend said, "i'm a lot to handle, mentally, emotionally, AND SEXUALLY, truely need that in my life and was telling Jawara that also..

Break up Note
Mood:  bright
I sent James this online "I'm want break up with you and we need to end our relationship because I was fucked up, and you are very cute James you said yes off of the first go to be my boyfriend. If you want to stay together just let me know? Couple of days you have not been talking to me online." I like him but I think it to soon because I have crust on other guys.,