How much want Jason in my life...
I told Jason couple of days ago how much I care about him. I really like him allot and dont want to lose him to another guy because I think we would have something going in our future. I know how much want him in my life. I dont really know how to express my feels with an gift, kiss, etc. I know that Randy is my best friend and know that he will stay best friends and I want to have Jason as my lover or theres days an(Boyfriend). I also went to Baltimore this weekend spent time with my friend antoine to have some fun but mostly was on the cell phone with Jason and was talking about our lifes, goals etc. I had antoine cooking for me this weekend, chillin little bit in bmore (store, walking streets in bal-more), but he was also not feeling good. But only times will tell how much Jason care about me. We already talking about getting an place together he is not like the other guys special then any one else love the way i talk with him, etc.

Mood:  happy
This morning met with with Tim at L'Enfant we then went back to the Hilton Hotel. we ate breakfast and then went to the hotel room and chilled and watch ER and then went to the court house subway station to wish him an good flight to chicago. I'll also talked with Jason today...

At lease I thought would have sometime to chill with Tim maybe one night but he made everynight to freak night but at least he having fun safe. I did want to chill with.. Next time he make room for me in his schedule...

Shout-Out
I really did not feel like doing nothing after them drinks from last night but relax. So I did want to see Tim but no way of traveling to see him but it always next time. I want give an shout out to Torran.. Randy and Tim...

Little Update
Mood:  happy
I do not know if I'm going to see Tim this weekend seem like he was very busy for me but o well but at lease talked with him. I dont know what planned for this afternoon.. Tim might plan move up to Maryland that me good..

I got fucked up last night at my father's Bday party dance with the females. I had an great time I'll wish I'll had an boyfriend then he could have came and got me and fucked my brain out until we fell sleep ,etc. and with kissing stuff.

Today met Torran from North East Baltimore. Thats four years old then me and is very cool and Top that would like to know more but dont know how it going work out since he moving to New York. He is 27 Years Old like him.

Update
This week prepard my stuff like supplies, etc for the move to the new building my new unit I'm going too.. I had no supervisor all week but no all supervisor who's not mines.. But she kool.. I am doing nothing this weekend but going to my daddy's B-Day Party and might go visit Tim on Sunday and chill with him for while.. I am off Monday but going to make sure my boxes are in my office and my chair I picked in in my space. Also Drey hit me up on email telling me he in east coast should say New York... Gimme a call when you get a
minute... I did talked for minute and told me he will call me back. I approved more members on my Yahoo Group.

Special Assistant to SAUL_brothas doing great job...
Mood:  happy
Topic: Announcements
I notice that DJ is running the group very good. He is doing an wonderful job. I am happy to have an new friend want take part in the group mission etc. Tonight DJ told me, "wish u were here...my body needs sum attention". Damn, someone trying make an move on me and know me DJ cool and like him little bit until know him more and honest would date him because I like his style and way he acts. I reply with " oh feel u, nice rub down or holding you watching movie, etc" I also give him my work # for he call me sometimes, only one that has my new work number then all my other friends so that mean DJ is special. One

Treating people right...
Topic: Announcements
People should be treated in the right way... one of my good members on Yahoo had to tell someone off for treating people wrong because you should not do that because not cool and not right because someone can do samething to you and hurt ur feels and feels do hurt someone. If you hurt someone in ur life should tell them sorry unless they earned it. Art pictures will be posted in my group very happy about it and If DJ want to be my boyfriend would be happy to start something with him and see's how it goes and treat him right.. I'm going bed now goodnight and shout-out to DJ and Tim..

I talked to DJ for second time first one was no one did not hang out with him for his 21st Birthday. He is very cool and had real good talk with him and told him be there for him and can call me anytime and is the new special assistant in my group that going bring new ideas to the group. Let me tell you this Nigel is an new friend and found out some stuff about him dont know true or not.. I dont take sides but know when someone treats someone wrong and not cool. This what happen "

darkfire_2003 : i see Nigel is one of your admins
mdnigga23: yes also an new friend
darkfire_2003 : yeah...i don't like him
darkfire_2003 : i'm thinkin bout dropping out of the group
mdnigga23: why you dont like him
darkfire_2003 : he plays games
darkfire_2003 : MAJOR games
mdnigga23: why you thinking about leaving group.
mdnigga23: like how (Trying find out problem)
** This Private
darkfire_2003 : instead he threw me away twice
darkfire_2003 : for no reason
mdnigga23: damn thats wrong but i'll been distance from him been busy but thanks for letting me know.
mdnigga23: Now why you thinking about leaving the group??
darkfire_2003 : and one of my friends was with me the day he stood me up
darkfire_2003 : cuz i don't want to be associated with someone the plays games
mdnigga23: U want to be an poll coordinator of the group.
darkfire_2003 : he invited me then as soon as i got out the car he made me leave
mdnigga23: like poll like how many niggas play games etc
darkfire_2003 : some stupid excuse
darkfire_2003 : u want me to do what?
mdnigga23: u know how group have polls.
mdnigga23: damn thats wrong
darkfire_2003 : yeah...i understand
mdnigga23: He support coordinator not an manager or assistant manager
mdnigga23: someone to support to add pictures and messages etc.
darkfire_2003 : i don't care about him
darkfire_2003 : i cried over him for like an hour
mdnigga23: damn.. thats total wrong that did that to you
mdnigga23: I want you to stay part of the group. u always can call me about anything.
mdnigga23: If you like too you be part of my management team make sure dont have no drama niggas in the group etc. (*No Body in mind)
mdnigga23: Give him the digits.. (Phone #)
darkfire_2003 : aww...thank you
mdnigga23: I can't stand when someone treats someone likes that.. It's not cool and understand he's older and you find someone who likes you and care about u.
darkfire_2003 : u are too sweet
mdnigga23: I know been told.
mdnigga23: You are now an moderator of the group and one of the moderator likes me allot since very sweet and cool.
darkfire_2003 : lol\
darkfire_2003 : (Kiss face) :)
mdnigga23: sent an message to the group. u welcome..
darkfire_2003 : (Smile face) :)
mdnigga23: you can approve pending messages and approve pending members, Invite and add members, and set auto-send options for files. I have removed some privileges for one of the moderator to only approve pending messages.
darkfire_2003 : ok
darkfire_2003 : what kinds of pictures do u want me to send>
mdnigga23: dont matter...
darkfire_2003 : i mean
darkfire_2003 : u want nasty ones
darkfire_2003 : art ones
darkfire_2003 : wow...i feel important
mdnigga23: u send anything aslong not too nasty and art is very good good thinking
darkfire_2003 : ok
mdnigga23: u read the message sent to group about u
darkfire_2003 : yes
darkfire_2003 : thank u
darkfire_2003 : i have tears...lol
mdnigga23: humm u special should be treated right no body should treat you wrong in the wrong way.
darkfire_2003 : thank u
darkfire_2003 : well i'm going to bed jus like u should
darkfire_2003 : good nite
darkfire_2003 has signed out. (7/11/2005 1:36 AM)
mdnigga23: Good Night call me at work in the morning if have time. call the cell because dont know when have my new work # for give it to you and call anytime talk to me but anything my cell is 240-324-8704 (This not cell number something like the number) but he got right one!! :).

My Yahoo Group

I started an group on Yahoo that is doing very good that could do better and invite people every day. I hired four assist to helped with the community since work allot but been approved and not approving some members but two of them are my friends etc and others are members. The group is Yahoo Group Let me tell you little bit about it, Sexual Underground Adult League(SUAL)brothas is an new group dedicated to meeting the needs of ages 18-Older in the metropolitan Washington, DC area who are lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and intersex, as well as those questioning their sexual orientation or gender identity.

This Boi who likes me

This boy name D has been calling me the whole weekend showing me that wants to talk to me and telling that I am nice person he cool and stuff. I want to meeet him but my schedule is kind of bad since started an new job and we be charging his schedule allot. I think he is cute..

Update

Today I hit this boi up to become friends but this what happen. "Hey whats good? You must do not remember me? I went Oxon Hill with you. My name is David. If I am not mistaking you graduated a year or two before me. But, what's up?" This boi is very cute and reply back to him.

Shout-Out
I read my big brother Tim Journal today about "There ARE Crazies On The Internet" it's true there are some crazy dudes out there but there also some cool dudes. I want give an shout to Tim, Marcus, Brandon, Dre, and Keenan. One more special shout out to Jordan an friend that went on one date and Bryan who met in weird way but he cool. aight

My X boyfriend Kirt hit me up tonight that have not talk to in him since last year. Kirt is fine but drinks to much and smokes thats not cool with me and sex was good dont know he asked me "do u went to j/off" I was like no.. I dont.. and also said " i went to see u" I was like have make some time I'm off next monday. The boi logged off for min and now hitting me back up. Good thing he asked me "so how u been" that was nice of him. The boi forgot my age that was bad since kirt is 21 Years Old now. Now Kirt dont drink allot thats an goodthing.

4th of July going okay, I wish Marcus happy 4th of July since he sent me text message this morning. I also been working on my new yahoo group and approving new members and adding photos and stuff. I was watching tv also and play little bit basketball early. I still can shoot the ball in the hole. I keep updated what else going down and about take an little nap now.

Friends
The brother who stay in SE, DC we finally became friends. This was the reply, "ok well thats a good answer i have no problem with us being friends...just wanted to see what your intention were and to get your answer". So maybe it takes some time for they know what you looking for why you want be there friend?

Looks who back in Picture
I'll was talking to my ex boyfriend Mario about stuff, etc. He told me that " i thought bout u" that was so sweet and still care about him allot. My baby still Single and have high standards, I know about that since I was with him cared about him with my heart. I would take him back to be my boyfriend if things works out.. I know that Marcus likes me also but care about him also but Mario was my love in my life. I loved Mario with my heart and soul.. but location was an problem with use.. I wanted to have an apartment together with Mario to live together spend our life together. Me and Marcus talked about this also..

I also had posted this, "your lifes sounds dagerous and fun FBI and watchin movies". This was someone I was talking to on adam4adam.com his screename is desiredbimany that is 18 Years Old and very cool person in P.G. County. He asked me "true..what do you do for a living..i mean what do you do" This job is very new to me and need an job to pay my bills, etc. I am glad working for the FBI they have their own gym and free also have ballas membership also.. We would just be friends since he have an boyfriend already.. but thats cool with me just being friends.

I talked about my new friend Komi from Bal-more on 6/26/05. I got tired of looking for bullshit nigga's in the area and was going try out of state friend's to see how it would be but it all pins on the person. I notice that all DC niggas are not fake as shit. He is also an vers/top and like that in him but dont care about if the person an top, bottom , or vers. This is how komi looks like real cute. This how he reply back from my message. He said, "ok cool. well tell me bout you. im Komi" I told him an little about me and then told me about him. That already in my journal that he reply back with about him. I had to posted this to my journal.